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Seeking Spirituality Through Hell or High Water
July 8, 2014, 11:36 pm
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ramadan-2014The blessed month of Ramadan has once again crept upon us oh-so-quickly. It’s taken me so long to write this post that I fear Ramadan will have come and gone before I finish.This year differs from others, as I’m not fasting. And it’s an odd feeling to say the least. I can still remember the excitement of my first fast when my parents dropped me off at a friend’s house and we spent the entire day playing outside. Life was simpler back then. I just needed to make it to 5:30pm without food or water. What a blessing it was to gain confidence in my ability to fast without food and water at such a young age.

Now…there is this little person that I have to nourish. And must thus nourish myself– trying to be as conscious as ever to be on top of my water consumption, and for that reason- I’m unable to fast. Being part of this “motherhood” world, I’m a bit more tuned into forums, blogs, tips on “what to do if/when/during etc… and there are so many varying posts and stories — all conflicting information floating online about whether or not it’s ok for mothers to forgo their fasts because they are breastfeeding. It kills me to see posts online of mothers describing that they’re fasting and their milk supply is low, that they can’t seem to produce enough to feed their child, but that they will continue to fast because “God knows best.” It would be a different story if they were supplementing with formula or fasting one day to see if it’s sustainable– but no, they’re just continuing to fast and hoping for the best.

I admire their will and passion. And I imagine they have the sincerest intentions. I understand this sense of gilt that’s been engrained in us– to fast or all hell breaks loose. Literally. But I’m not sure at what point our community lost its ability to think rationally. We have truly become immune to logic. And it breaks my heart.

“Perhaps a great deed is belittled by an intention. And perhaps a small deed, by a sincere intention, is made great.”

Allahhu 3lim. Here’s to having the sincerest of intentions. With a little bit of reason. May He write us amongst the highest in Paradise. Ameen