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I’m a “Ramadani”
May 26, 2017, 9:59 pm
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Yeah, I said it. I memorize the Quran… during Ramadan.
I go to the mosque… during Ramadan.
I watch my language… mostly during Ramadan.
My heart softens…during Ramadan.

And each Ramadan, I’m reminded of some of the most beautiful, fundamental, and basic components of the religion. Without going too far into the Quran, you can find the simplicity that surrounds the religion.

We believe in Allah and that which is revealed unto us and that which was revealed unto Abraham, and Ishmael, and Isaac, and Jacob, and the tribes, and that which Moses and Jesus received, and that which the prophets received from their Lord. We make no distinction between any of them, and unto Him we have surrendered. (2:136)

Worship who you may. So pure. So basic.

But every time I hear of an attack by a “Muslim” on the innocent, a sense of confusion clouds my understanding of the beauty that I previously saw in the religion. It might not happen the first time, or the second or third… but eventually I ask– why is the religion that I hold so dear being snatched away from me? Time and time again.

I move further and further away from something that I want to love—  I become more distant as the interpretations get misinterpreted , as the people of the religion become misguided, and as the religion gets represented by men and women who bring terror to the innocent.

Maybe, this year I’ll start with gratitude. For all the things we can see and can’t see. I pray for everyone this Ramadan to be under Your protection and light.

Allahumma innaka ‘afuwwun tuhibbul ‘afwa fa’fu ‘annee (O Allah, indeed you are a Pardoner, and you love pardon, so pardon me.) 

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He turns Three.
May 11, 2017, 10:56 am
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They grow up so fast. No, really. Edris is almost 3 now. You read the development charts, but watching him grow is incredible to see. At first, you want them to everything quickly. To be advanced. But then, you just wish they would slow down.

He said, “what the heck” the other day. It coulda been worse. This kid is picking up every mannerism and word we say. every. single. one. He isn’t being taught anything, But he’s learning everything. Correctly. He’s saying everything in its proper context. I don’t understand how he understands so much. They say birth is a miracle. But life and growth is just as miraculous.

He’s a social baby. Craves being with friends and cousins. Loves that he’s so loved. He misses friends. He had so many. He calls every kid on the street his friend. I don’t want to burst his bubble so I play along.

The parks here are amazing. He could live at the park if we let him.

He’s accepted that adults drink coffee. And tea. And that he can’t have any.

He knows how to get what he wants when he wants it. And for now, that seems to be the ipad and milk bottle. Don’t judge. Uff, that’s going to be a tough habit to break.

He says his prayers and has memorized the part where you say Ameen. He still says a prayer for all the nannies back in Chennai. And for all of his family members. He loves the word family and for every three items he sees (such as 3 cars), he calls them mama, baba, and Edris. If he sees two items, he labels them OliviaScreen Shot 2017-05-11 at 12.53.54 PM and Edris. Because, naturally.

He’s the light of my life and I pray that God continues to to guide and protect him. To keep him healthy and happy. May he be blessed with a caring and generous spirit. May he continue to be the light of our eyes. Ameen.

“One day you will ask me which is more important? My life or yours? I will say mine and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.” K. Gibran